It hasnt been long since youve left this place, but it feels like forever already. I walk around here aimlessly not knowing what to do with myself. Knowing that its permanent is what hurts the most. Knowing you arent coming back tomorrow. Knowing that nothing will ever be the same.

I sat around on the first beautiful Saturday of summer with all our friends, and I thought to myself, “This is how I want my summer to be.” But I cant have what I want. I cant be at that place, I cant be with you all the time. Summer without you is like it will be raining all the time. And where will you be to keep me warm and safe? Where will we be…

Im not scared that we wont make it. Im not scared that we arent strong enough. Im scared of not being with you like before. Im scared of becoming a zombie like Ive been for the past day. Everyone says I will get used to it and the zombie stage will pass…but they dont know what we had/have.

I feel like I dont belong where I am right now. Apart of me is somewhat missing. Im so out of place that I cry…without you here this place means nothing anymore.

I miss you so much already….<3

“I never thought I’d need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I’m alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever I know we were
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can only breathe
I need to feel you here with me”

Copyright Laura-Lyn Burrows 2007.

“There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. Afraid. Confused. Without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days.
Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us would rather turn around and go back.
But once in awhile people push on to something better-something found just beyond the pain of going it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance.
Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream.
Because it’s only when you’re tested that you discover who you truly are. And it’s only when you’re tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief, and beyond heartache and fear of what lies ahead.”

definitely a One Tree Hill quote…but its just so amazing.